this week is is set to be a very BIG week. I can’t wait to see what the outcomes will be, as they will effect two major facets of my life which in turn will ripple its way into every nook and cranny that is me. Oye…bad time to quick smoking, but gotta do it someday.
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Just left the doctors office and he told me my hearing has greatly improved. Which means I can get a hearing aid, although he said I probably won’t like it because of the distortion esp at restaurants. But i’m gonna give it a try regardless.
I’m so ecstatic I can hardly contain myself!
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That last post really put me in a somber mood. To alleviate that, here are my top 10 reasons why I like being partially deaf.
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i haven’t posted too much personal info on this site for some time now as I felt like I haven’t had too much to say. But today’s post is something that I have been wrangling with for the past few days, and honestly, for the last 1.2 years. man, its really been that long.
so here it goes. I HATE BEING DEAF! Granted it’s only in one ear, but man, does it suck. It really came to a hilt this weekend, when what should have been a great night, turned into this “what did you say” and just random nodding. I could see her annoyance (or was that just me?). Under normal circumstances, I could have cared less, but this particular night, I wanted to move “things” forward. Instead, what i got was a night of half conversations, and not knowing what was said about 60% of the time. yes, I could have said, can you repeat that please, but fucking shiet, try doing that every 5 mins! She probably wouldnt have minded, but I do. I want a sense of normalcy but now, I can’t even go to some of my favorite places, because its just too fucking loud. Sure, I still go with the boys, and some girls that I could care less about, but its different when you want to get to know someone.
I’ve heard the explanations that if she cares then she wont mind, but honestly, does that really play here? i mean, let’s run down the list of places i can’t go to. Loud places. Meaning any place, where there is either loud music or too many conversations going on at any one time. Now take a step back, and think about all the places that this applies to. Even better, take a cotton ball, and shove it in your ear and go to your favorite restaurant. Frustrated much?
So i’m pretty much left with only a few places where I can feel normal and not ask to repeat what you said too many times or nod like a moron. Some coffee shops, although I noticed that particular day, that even my favorite coffee shop is getting too loud, (thank goodness i could care less about that chick, hehe).
I am thankful that my friends and family forget that I can’t hear and that it’s a bit hard for me to be my normal self in public situations bc frankly, i’m exhausted just trying to figure out what the heck you all are saying to me. But today, ironically today, after much despondency over the weekend due to this epiphany that I hate not being able to hear, my brother talks to me and tells me I need to go out more. I tell him I do but I’m limited. He forgot i can’t be in loud places, so i explained it to him again, and he said, just nod, get their number and talk later. Oh ye married man, how you forget that just nodding to a chick doesnt get their number! I’m the type of guy that if I’m on point, I can talk yer ear off and totally get the girl…but lately, its just been weighing heavily on me.
So now what? Well, time to get a hearing aid. Woohoo!!! First things first though, gonna get tested to make sure it will actually help. I am hoping my doctor will say, Adam, looks like a hearing aid will now help you, rather than, Adam, looks like you’re still under the threshold for an aid to help. Seriously, if he says the latter, I am going to punch someone then take up sign language and lip reading. I’ve tried lip reading, but I’ve noticed that i miss nuances of what is said and I tend to look at the speaker’s eyes and not their lips.
So if I am in a somber mood, just let me be, i’m trying to come to terms with my gimpiness…again.
So far there have been only 2 good things to all this, as I am ever the optimist, 1) i could pretend not to hear what you say bc frankly yer an idiot and what you said is so lame that it doesn’t deserve a retort and 2) its easy to sleep because I lay down on my good ear and all is quiet.
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Un-friggin-believable! My arteries have clogged and my taste buds have been worked.
Definitely a great burger joint. Not for the faint of heart.
By 6th and normandie.
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